just waiting

The due date is just one week away, and we just feel like we're marking time now. Hosanna is definitely ready to get it over with. I mean, just look at her! The midwife said the baby was probably about 7 1/2 pounds two weeks ago. So what now, 8 pounds? 8.5 pounds?

Hosanna's time now is almost entirely marked by dealing with the discomfort, trying to sleep, examining her pee to see if it's actually broken water in disguise... and yes, she's still walking, although not as far or as frequently.

Emotionally, this week has been a big turnaround for both of us, though. We had a low point last week where it seemed like we just couldn't reach each other. I was increasingly anxious about everything, and she was cranky from being so big and uncomfortable.

This week, things have settled down into something a little more normal. I'm much more present now. I've been running every two or three days, which helps a lot. I really need the physical exertion to stay sharp mentally and emotionally. Otherwise it's too easy for me to fall into a funk.

Hosanna, too, has evened out a little bit. It has helped her immensely to be home from work. She's called lots of people, both friends and family, and many more people have called her as well. She's loved getting back in touch with so many people. She misses her friends at work, but is really glad to not have to concentrate on teaching for a while. It was becoming really hard for her.