Movin' right along

We're now approaching week 10. Hosanna is in the full swing of nausea. She spends most of the time eating, lying down, or lying down and eating. It's just got to be the suckiest thing I've seen in a long while. She's not thrown up much since the chile relleno incident, but she definitely feels queasy all the time.

It's weird that we can no longer take for granted that she can eat whatever she wants to. Everything throughout the day revolves around food. If you screw up the food, then the day can get ugly. Luckily, we have found a routine that seems to work. Each night before we go to sleep, I cut up an apple and leave it on her nightstand. When she wakes up to pee, usually about six, she eats that, then can usually go back to sleep. I get up and get ready for work about seven; then I bring her up a bowl of cereal. So long as she eats it before she gets out of bed, then it seems like she'll be ok.

I'm feeling increasingly disconnected from her these days, which is disturbing me a little. Part of it is that I tend to shut down whenever I encounter new or unusual emotions. Part of it is that she's asleep a lot so I have more time to myself than usual. Also it's been really cold and dreary weather and I feel a bit of cabin fever.

I really want to get out and do stuff. I'm driven to fix things that I've let slide for a while. I took care of some random stuff that was bugging me on one of our cars; when it's not raining I've been doing some yardwork that I've neglected all winter; and I've tried to do some work on the bathroom we've been getting ready to paint, stripping off the remaining wallpaper residue. Unfortunately, I've also been playing a lot of XBox, which probably isn't helping my mental attitude any. Getting exercise seems to be the most important thing for me right now - whenever I do, I feel much, much better and more positive about the whole thing.

Last night we had a big brainstorm on names. I think we've settled on the middle names - Isaac, after my grandfather, or Kathryn, after Hosanna's mother. The first names are still the center of debate though. I think we know what the front runners are, but I don't think I'm ready to reveal them to the world yet...